Wednesday, September 30, 2015

Coming home

“The biggest failure you can have in life is making the mistake of never trying at all.” – Unknown

As September draws to a close, I'm taking the opportunity to reflect on the last 9 months. I have been bold in trying new things and pursuing new opportunities. I have definitely said, YES to my life more this year than I have in in the recent past. Perhaps that's one of the advantages of getting older (and hopefully, a bit wiser) is that fear of the unknown doesn't paralyze me quite as much as it used to. Not to say that I'm reckless, not by any means! But I am willing to do a little recon and explore my options. 
As I become clearer on what I DON'T want, I can make space for the possibility of what I MAY want; I can try it on, see how it "fits" me, and decide to keep it or move on to the next option.

This blog has been calling to me. I took a break for awhile and now I feel pulled back, to share my experiences, lessons learned, and try to find my way through the daily challenges of life. I believe that life is better shared, much like a gooey, decadent dessert. Sometimes it makes you feel really good and sometimes it makes you feel sick. Either way, the experience is better when you have someone to share it with!

The most profound lessons of my life have come from allowing myself to be vulnerable with others, even when I didn't know how to do that. When I admitted that I needed help, support, or just someone to share my feelings with, more often than not, what I needed was there. I learned that not only did I have to ask for help, but I also had to allow people to help me, even when their help didn't look exactly the way I expected. 

I believe that each of us is born with a unique gift that is ours alone to share with the world. No one else can do or be that one "thing" in exactly the same way that we can. The world is made so much richer by our contributions. The tragedy of today's society is that we're conditioned to conform, to fit in, to dull our special light. I think there's a huge difference between self-confidence and conceit. In an attempt to avoid the latter, we often sacrifice the former. I have suffered from feelings of "not ___ enough" my whole life, and, even now, I am uncomfortable when someone acknowledges a positive attribute that I possess. I am so conditioned to minimizing my strengths; I wish that I could provide myself with the same support and encouragement that I give to others.


I'm working on it.
I'm a work in progress.
I can accept that today.

I'll never be perfect and that's OK.
As long as I'm a little better than I was yesterday, I'm moving in the right direction.

I'm glad to be back and look forward to sharing more adventures & insights with you.

Sweet dreams, lovelies!

Friday, September 11, 2015

Back in the saddle again...

If you want to make your dreams come true, the first thing you have to do is wake up.” – J.M. Power

Hello friend....It's been awhile since we last got together. I hope all is well in your world. I'm sorry I've been M.I.A. I didn't feel quite up to sharing...haven't been thrilled with some choices I've made lately. I've been stuck in a rut of ickiness and didn't feel that I had much of worth to share with you. I guess it would have been the ideal time to share my struggles & imperfections with you...I know I'm not alone in my negative feelings of self worth and self-medicating with food & social media, but who wants to hear someone complain about their life, right?  I want to provide inspiration and support, not wallow in my own crap. Misery loves company & I am determined NOT to contribute to the already excessive amount of negativity in the world. SO, I chose to stay silent.....for far too long, as it turns out.
I'm ready to take baby steps to loving myself again and treating myself the way I want to be treated.
I'm sick & tired of being sick & tired! Ready to make some MAJOR changes...starting with my physical health.

Can any of you relate?
Have you experienced periods like this?
What's worked for you? |
Maybe we can help each other....

Would love to hear from you!

Peace & love...